Hey everyone. Been awhile. Last time I updated was in April. Lots has happened since then.

Summer semester sucked. Don't go to school during summer. It's a horrible experience. I mean, lots of shit happened, and even though I got the best grades I had ever gotten, I felt like I was on the verge of failing all the fucking time.

I wanted to quit. I wanted to just abandon everything and run home. I smiled, made jokes, and pretended like things were okay, but I was miserable, and I wanted to scream constantly.

My family problems had built up, I broke up with my girlfriend, and I had deadlines stressing me out. I was not in the mood to deal with anything. I'm still not.

Well, now things feel manageable. I feel like I've gotten a decent grasp on my sanity, and despite what's happened... I feel a bit more focused on what I want to do.

I realized that I can't draw very well. And that's no one's fault but mine. So I've decided to draw as much as possible now. Something that I should've done beforehand, but I got caught up in stupid shit.

I can't draw women, mechs, gestures, animals, etc...very well, and I feel like that is a bad sign. If I plan on doing what I want to do, I need to study more, and get better. Provided, this is gonna take a lot of work...I'm actually very driven. I feel inspired, and hopefully I'll get better. I would appreciate any encouragement, helpful links, or anything, because I realize that I'm not the only one.

I've been looking at lots of different artwork lately. French art, Japanese art, old Disney stuff... Color, design, proportions, all of this is being cataloged in my head. I've made several notes to myself, and I've reread it lots of times in my head. This weekend, I'm heading to the library to study some of the reference books, and making notes to research different topics.

One of these topics is the human figure. I want to be a character designer in the future, and if I can't draw people well...then I'm gonna have a hard pressed time trying to get that job within a company. So, I'm going to spend ample time researching the human body. Which means I'm going to start looking at nudes.

I've never been so happy to pursue research.

While, YES, as a young man, I'm pleased to look at naked women...I'm maintaining a very professional and studious attitude towards this. And don't be surprised if you glance at my favorites and see naked people. There's gonna be a lot of them.

Well...I'm off to continue research. It's 5:30 in the morning right now, and I have a full day to keep working and drawing. Wish me well, and I bid you good luck in your future projects and studies.

Peace,
-Chad-